Spirituality, I’m on a journey!

Spirituality, I’m on a journey!



hello yoga hippy here I wanted to make a post about some things that have been going on some experiences that I've been having by the way I'm in an area perk to my car that's a little bit heavily trafficked there's a bike path right in front of me and anyway I might be distracted looking around but anyway so I once upon a time I was born again Christian and born-again Christians believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross for their sins and that that's the only way to heaven and they believe in a heaven an end and a hell and they're pretty challenging to talk with because they believe it's the only way so there's no way that they will like be open to another person's point of view they don't accept anybody else's point of view because the way that that whole program is set up makes it impossible for them to be able to do that also planes constantly go over over here so I apologize for that I can't control the planes and they go over all the time so anyway I was walking down that path when I was 18 I went through a Christian drug rehab and I realized after about 13 months that they were not gonna let me out of there until I became a Christian and it didn't seem like a bad deal they all seemed pretty happy and I wanted to be sober and I thought maybe it would help me stay sober I didn't really know about all the you know I wasn't really sure that I totally believed everything but I like wanted to so I was like 18 you know and okay I believe and I said the sinner's prayer and and then several years later got married to a minister or a man he became a minister and I found myself being I stay-at-home mom which I was happy to be however I was also married to a minister and I was growing up I guess cuz I got married at 22 so my worldview was really be a starting to kind of have some thoughts on my own you know and I wasn't really raised in the church so I didn't really ever resonate with this whole it's the only way idea and that was probably my first complaint about all of it when I found out I don't like oh okay like no I don't think it's okay to tell people that that's the only way and I don't believe it's my place to tell anybody they're going to hell and so I started having some very fundamental really basic problems with this path that I had found myself very much a part of and so over the course of a decade or more I just turned away finally I walked away and and then a year later left my ex-husband and anyway all of that was a crazy time in my life and shaped and formed some really strong and deep embedded opinions about God and who that might be and what that might be to me and Christians and I realized that not all born-again Christians or the way that I was exposed to them at that time but it definitely impacted me in a way that I don't even know that I completely could articulate to you so I became a better economic and was pissed off and decided that God didn't care that something created whatever you know this world because it is miraculous but I didn't feel that this this being had any interest in my life so recently in April I learned how to channel Ricky to Moe and in the energy work there's a couple of different kinds I guess of reiki and ricky is like universal energy and I'm always forgetting how to break that word down but it's basically this universal energy that we're given and so I got a tune to it and I can channel this and it's healing it's super peaceful and loving it's heart centered and in the middle of channeling this you're doing this exercise surrendering to it or intending to channel it and all of a sudden I just had this moment like whoa it just was overcome with love I felt so much love and I realized I am connected to this beam and ever since that moment April 14th I've been trained to discern what I want to believe about this and it has completely turned my worldview on in in such a good way so my son is a born-again Christian and he's awesome and we have a lot of conversations about it and he's always like mom you're so close you're so close so we just can you just talk about everything like it's Christianity but then you just don't embrace the whole Jesus thing and I'm like yeah no I can't it's an interesting place to be because I'm completely fine I feel better than I probably have in my entire life about so many things and realized that I'm we're all loved so much and I don't know about Jesus I know he walked the earth and he was a you know miraculous person who created healing and he did those things but there's like a historical proof that those things happen but I don't know about the dying on the cross for me that that story really disturbs me on a real deep level like makes me pretty upset like when I was a Christian I would just get mad about that whole thing and everybody would want to take communion and be all like grateful or something and I would just be like mad like why would you do that why would God do that what that's been that's terrible and anyway so that I'm still tore I'm still sorting that out but the rest of this I want to tell you is just pretty miraculous and last night I went to breath work then would this place got the breath center and apparently I don't know this man until last night he was a famous yogi he's yoga famous is what the lady said but he is like Shakti fest and bhakti best and all these yoga festivals and he is like a master Michael Bryan I'm gonna get his name wrong and I apologize I'll put it in the comments later when I get a chance to get to my computer at his website it's called the breath center anyway we did this breath work where we took two breaths in and exhale out and if you know anything about breath work it's pretty powerful and our body is affected greatly by our breath and how deep our breaths are how we control our breaths how we don't control our breaths and the cells in our body and our nervous system is directly affected by our breath so whenever you're having anxious moments stopping to breathe it's vital that you connecting to your nervous system to calm yourself down I so anyway we did this breath and he was really interesting and I'm still he said he could feel the shifts up till like a couple of days like 72 hours I guess that's a couple more than a couple days anyway that was super interesting to me and I can't say that I had like a miraculous shift last night but he said something could happen you know anytime that I definitely feel different today and different in a way I am a real Airy person I'm like a double Gemini and all this kind of stuff if you're into astrology but I am pretty like LA you know a lot high energy and I feel like supremely grounded this morning I just feel very calm and centered and it's a good feeling so on that add this to my repertoire okay so every morning I've been getting up and I've been doing all these meditations and I've recently discovered another thing called thetahealing I just have so many things I'm kind of focused on right now so it's about subliminal messages in your mind and it's totally fascinating so that the theta brain waves are only there the right before you go to bed and right when you're waking up and that's where your subconscious mind lives and our subconscious mind is driving like 97% of our day in our life so you can't just tell it you want to think differently you have to kind of go into the subconscious mind during this theta that's what hypnosis does and reprogram it so I've been listening ahead tapes you know recordings right for it abed to help me change some blocks that I believe I have around abundance and so and then I do Reiki on myself this Reiki to mo and anyway I've been getting up at 5:30 in the morning to do all these things and I'm feeling good and I'm really happy about a lot of things and I'm happy that I connected to whatever this is I've decided to call it spirit because I think I had PTSD ever the word God the term God and so I'm only comfortable really referring to his spirit and even that makes me go a little bit just because I was so very anti any of this stuff for so long and honestly yo guys opened up my whole world and I saw another born-again Christians are gonna disagree and I don't want to debate it because they're I honestly just I mean I'm my son and I talk about it all the time and my entire family they're all Christians and and I was why I know all the things that people will say to me and there's no way that you're gonna argue your way or your point into changing my mind it is going to have to happen from some other wing and if that were to happen it would be a spirit thing a god thing whatever if I decided to walk on the path of Jesus being my Savior again that would definitely be something that happened from not a person and would be directly from spirit so please don't worry about trying to save me that's God's job if that's gonna happen I'm currently pretty happy and don't see that I need to be saved but that's just what I'm saying so anyway um I just wanted to share that that we're all on our path here in life and that whether it's breath work that's changing your life meditation there's change in your life cause also do trends a little meditation I try to get that in at least once a day but anyway all these things are are changing me in a way that feels very peaceful and grateful and happy and wonderful so I hope wherever you are in your journey that you are staying open to ideas and spirit because we're being given messages all the time and no I think it's good to try things and to see how you feel about them so if you're depressed or you're stressed or anxious or just down whatever your deal is there are a lot of resources out there to help you feel better yoga meditating and Reiki Reiki – MO and I encourage you to seek them out and try them it's really changed my life that's all for today and I hope that everybody is finding their way and that you will like my video and subscribe

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